Bubble Girl?

So, I'm in one of those moods. If know me, you'll know that when I get in one of THOSE moods, it usually results in verbal diarrhea. God help us all. I've decided the safest thing to do is channel my thoughts into this blog post. Chances are, anyone who reads this will either be going through the exact same thing, or have already experienced it. If you have yet to enjoy these emotions, brace yourself, they WILL come. I've touched on friendship and pregnancy several times in past posts. But, I have never truly divulged my inner feelings about the relation between the two. Honestly, I am learning more and more, that your friendships WILL be affected by your pregnancy. Now here is the thing, all of our non-preggo friends just don't seem to get the fact that we actually can do just about anything they can. The only thing I can't do is eat a bunch of raw fish and get hammered. Although I would never, pregnant or not, do those two things at the same time anyway! Yes, I'm back on this. But only because the holidays are supposed to be a time where you spend time with your friends, where we make that extra effort. You know, peace on earth, all that junk. Bottom line is that it's just too damn peaceful at my house these days. People say 'Oh, I see that you're baking an awful lot lately'. Why yes, I am. But it's only because I'm bored out of my damn mind, and the highlight of my day is finding a new recipe, but in the meantime I am going to end up giving it all to my parents, because I basically have no one else in my life these days, other than my poor boyfriend. I truly feel bad for him, I can't count the times I have to cried to him about this whole 'friend' issue. Each time he says, 'well you've got me'. I cry even harder, and say 'IT'S NOT THE SAAAAME'. He means well, but I don't think he gets that I miss my girlfriends. I miss going for drives, I miss just hanging out, I miss having someone to go shopping with, go for lunch with. I wouldn't even mind going to a bar, and drinking water but just being around my friends. But somehow, when you get pregnant, I think people assume you want to sit home and eat ice cream and watch sappy movies. Well yes, sometimes I do want to do that. But doesn't any normal girl want to do that sometimes, pregnant or not? Before long I will be exhausted from feedings, sleepless nights, changing diapers, and trying to keep my home in order. So right now, I'm trying to enjoy my last few months of freedom. So it would be nice to have those friends around. So of all my posts, I would say this one probably takes the cake for most negative. However, it had to be said. Don't give up on your preggo friends, and don't count them out. They still have all the same needs they had before. In fact, they might even need you a bit more now than they did before. Just something to remember. :)

Twenty-One Weeks already? WHAOW!

Hey friends! It's been a couple weeks since my last post. But honestly, my life has taken a turn for the somewhat normal these past few weeks. Since I arrived back from my 10 days trip to Québec City, things have been almost blissful. But please keep in mind that bliss for me and bliss for the average person are NOT the same thing. Bliss for the average person is probably like that angel in the Philly cream cheese commercials, with the music and the relaxation and all that commercial fun. My relaxation involves, no fighting, cuddles, my puppy, eating, sleeping, going for drives, and best of all, CHRISTMAS! All things Christmas! This year, as soon as I got back from Québec, I decided that I was going to take advantage of the holiday and enjoy it for that much longer, so my tree has been up for weeks! Yes, it's fake, and no, I'm not usually a fan of fakes trees, BUT I want to enjoy my tree right up until the New Year. I had so much fun shopping for new ornaments, picking out a colour scheme, decorating my living room and kitchen. My boyfriend jumped right on board with me and has encouraged my excitement and complimented my decorating skills. So now, each evening, we curl up on the couch with all of our Christmas lights lit up, and watch tv together. This is something we have not done since we moved in together last June. Each evening, I would go in the bedroom to watch 'my' shows, and he would lay on the couch and watch 'his' shows. Now, we watch 'our' shows together, and enjoy each others company. I find myself so thankful that we can fall asleep together, and wake up together each morning. We eat breakfast together, and figure out what we're going to do with our day. I never thought I would appreciate having a partner who works seasonally, but at this stage in my pregnancy I truly appreciate his company, and he has fast become my best friend. But I have to tell you the truth. You will know from reading my posts, that this did not happen over night. My poor boyfriend has been to hell and back with me in the past 5 months, and the fact that he has stuck by me truly amazes me every day.
So let's do a little update on how things are progressing in the baby-growing process. Today I am exactly 21 weeks. I'm feeling pretty good, the past couple days I have barely felt any nausea at all. We actually just spent two days with friends and family on Prince Edward Island. We shopped, and I got my dream pillow, the pregnancy pillow, the mother of ALL pregnancy pillows! Yes, my loving boyfriend bought me a $70 pillow that takes up half of the bed, but supports my extremely sore back while I'm sleeping at night. I have scoliosis, and my doctor warned me that I may have some extreme back pain as my body continues to adjust to the baby during this process, and she was NOT lying. I have had shooting pains on a daily basis, but this pillow is making things much more bearable, as is the my boyfriends willingness to rub my back at any given time, whether I'm driving or laying on the couch. Such an accommodating guy he is. I have had two ultrasounds at this point. My second one was about a week ago, and my little wiggler was stubborn and would NOT let us see their face. At this point, we still don't know if we are having a boy or a girl. My technician moved very quickly over that area of the body, so I didn't even get a glance to see. I do, however, have to go back in on Thursday to have ANOTHER ultrasound because the little bugger wouldn't let use measure their head, because they are so low down they are literally pushing on my bladder. Which explains my constant need to pee. Also, in less than a week, we will be going to Halifax to find out if we are having a boy or a girl! So exciting! I have the strongest instinct that it's a boy. I don't know why, but from day one I have felt that way. I have a lot more boy things than girl things, so I am kind of hoping we are right. I know my boyfriend would love to have a little boy, and so would my parents. But I know his mother is wishing so badly for a girl, she has two grand-sons, and two sons, so a girl on the picture wall would be a dream come true for her. In the mean time, I am just keeping myself busy with my Christmas baking, finishing up my Christmas shopping, and enjoying the company of my loves.
I have gained 25 pounds so far in my pregnancy, and according to most sources, that is the average weight gain during an entire pregnancy. However, after a few tearful weigh-ins at my prenatal visits, my doctor finally had to tell me that I am perfectly healthy, and have nothing to worry about, and she predicts I will be able to lose most of my weight with no problem. So I'm just continuing to eat healthy, and enjoy the occasional bag of chips or poutine. My advice to my fellow preggos during the holiday season? Enjoy your favorite treats, have an extra cookie, or a candy cane hot chocolate. Relax, enjoy the holiday music and movies, let the excitement overtake you, and think ahead to a year from now, when we will be planning our little ones very first Christmas! Don't feel bad for a single indulgence, the holidays often involve over indulgence in alcohol and partying, so what the hell are we supposed to do at these parties? Eat, obviously! Let people touch our bellies? If you want! No matter what you prefer, just enjoy this time, it's all yours! <3